Happy fasting happy life, yay!!
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: September 5, 2009
heyyy!
i’m back, though i’m not even sure that for how long. Missed writing all the tiny details of my life, thanks to my office and life and mood, that i haven’t been able to write much now.
Here are a few updates and recent events,
I’m in love, lol okay no comments.
Couple of weeks back I started to work with a couple of students on a theme song of their short film. Rahail was helping out too, but unfortunately, the technical issues led us to stop working. in short, we lost the sound card. So basically, i was very excited about this project. Unfortunate, and i’m kinda still upset about it.
Okay, lets go further on, oh yes, Ramadan! The holy month of blessings. Though it influence a lot to get back to my roots and religion and the whole experience of this month is amazing. But, the fun part is me and almost all my mates are back to GAMING! Yes, busy life and schedules don’t let us do that much
I started off playing all the games holding my childhood memories. Such as Captain Tsubasa, King Of Fighters 1997. Also, War Craft 1 and 2.
Planning to start off playing SIMS!
Face book, i deactivated my account. For a lot of reasons which a few people actually asked me but i couldn’t give them a satisfactory reply. I think I needed a pause, a break from people. Not from friends, mind you. lol
Been trying to work on a few new things in life. I hope to achieve some what of what i have in mind.
In short, i’m loving my life 
Until next time,
Rab De Hawaalay.
Shakespeare again..
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: September 5, 2009
Three sentences for getting success:
a) Know more than others
b) Work more than others
c) Expect less than others
Bonnie Blair…
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: July 15, 2009
Winning doesn’t always mean being first, winning means you’re doing better than what you’ve done before.
Tera Chaand aur Mere Taaray…
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: June 24, 2009
Dilon mein baat rakhay hum doobtay jaa rahe hain
Saath ik dujay ka choray hum bujhte jaa rahe hain,
Hum kehne jaa rahe hai har ulti baat
Hum nay weeraan kerdi apni har chandni raat,
Tum chaand ko takte rahe aur hum ginte rahe taaray
Hum tum sath bethe yeh kerte rahe aur Hanste rahe saray,
Jo na thay hamaray aur Na hongay tumharay
Bas kuch pal ke sahaaray, Hum takte rahe wo be’jaan Nazaaray.
Confessions in smoke….
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: May 25, 2009
Repetition or consistency is normally labelized as a good attribute in a daily life. Be it work, relationships, activities, qualities and quantities etc… Today, I found out a sheer truth or I can even say a fact of my life. Yes, I have been consistent too. Yes, I have become good at it.
Let me break the surprise and tell you what it really is, I have become greatest in repeating my mistakes and breaking everyone’s truth , heart and soul.
I literally have blown away many things very dear to me.
I have been away from my blog and writing planet, there were reasons. The biggest is that I wanted to focus on some other things been happening around or it can even be defined in a way that I needed to take off my focus from my head, my brain and my heart. I didn’t want to take out that side of me which always urges me to wake up the loneliness and happiness at the same time in myself. The sheer power and that lightning bolt of energy particles running over in my veins with my blood cell. And as soon as it passes through my brain, KABOOM!!!
What I wrote above is something I don’t know why I say this…. I might end up missing so many words in between of my this entry today… After a long time, my brain and heart are finally together but both in the sadness of my entity. I have started to become insane of the conceptual shit we face every day in life. Humanity is on the verge of becoming the worst form of living creatures to exist on this pure precious planet we call home.
The more I think about it, the more I wish to fix things and my surroundings and when it comes to redefining things and lives, how about starting with my own self?
So the game began, the blame game where my opponent was this guy who calls himself the best person ever to be existed, Me.
Probably this isn’t the best of times to write here or even in public. But no, I need to say things at least to someone. I have become, a very complicated chewing gum. Yes, a real gum…
So much has happened lately. So much drama, the sadness and the wildness and happiness too. But there are certain things which have always made me feel the worst person. For which I completely affirm to right now.
I am a very lucky guy, I am. And I honestly thank God for making me one. Good family, good life, good work and nice hair. But more importantly, have had amazing people in my life. But the problem has been common, I met amazing people in fact saints and angels for me. Emotionally, I got attached to many people in last decade. People like Sarah, Samo, Komal, Minah, Wajiha, Zair, Mohsin, Ayesha, Anya, Sara, Rooma etc. These are the real people defining me and re=defining my life.
Blunder of my life, I let each and everyone of them down. And broke/hurt a few people so much that today, I often fear knowing new people.
Today, Sarah and Samo are far far away from me but never from my memories and heart. I treated them terribly bad. But I never thought that we’ll be this far away from each other. But they didn’t go, I pushed them away….
A little angel came into my life who taught me the meaning of FUN and laughter…. Someone I completely broke with my blunders, calculations and bull shits. And today, even by being around you, I don’t feel being with you. Being sitting beside you but, I find us separated miles away. I am not even sure if you’ll come on this blog but, this is for you Minah. You are one rocking gem I lost… lost.
I feel blessed to still have Zair, Mohsin, Ayesha, Wajiha, Anya, Sara and Rooma with me. You dudes are the bestest I tell you… And Ayesha you, I need you! I love you and I always want you to be with me always and forever. I know how hard it was for me to win you back baby, I need you and we both know that…
Yes, this is getting way too higher than all the other heights. I know, just let it be please.
But this doesn’t end here…
Two of the most dearest and nearest people to be a part of my life, who saw my every mood , every sight, for all the happiness and all the fights. My cheerful and biggest part of the last decade or even more than that. The huge part of my heart and more importantly my soul. Vicky and Hina… I have no idea if any of you know about this blog post or not. But hey, you guys complete me. You always have and maybe tonight , I feel incomplete because I don’t have you guys with me. I never ever dreamt to be left alone without you two especially you Hina. I have ran out of words to explain to you what you are to me. I know I have done terrible things lately, I broke your pride and trust, worst is I broke your soul. I am guilty but this punishment of not having you, my real love, my sister, my best friend and my heart beat… I don’t know what to write anymore, but I am broken and I need you. Back in my life, back to you…
Yes friends, this life is full of regrets like many. People I love, people I miss, people I want and people I break. This has been the only consistent part of me. For my entire life, the most painful comment I got was the someone saying that they are scared of me… I have lost myself and my way.
I need to focus, on what I was and what I have become. The pain is intense, the feelings are there but the emotions have started to fade but then, things fade out to fade in again… I feel helpless, I feel sad and I feel worse than ever.
Please, never break anyone’s heart because most of the time, we are the ones living in that pretty little heart. I broke it, now I am homeless. Tired of myself, how can you not be
PS: Dope is bad, ignore the technical errors in post..
My Friends..
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: May 22, 2009
I started to walk a long time ago. Hopping and popping my ways to life. To the existence of the existing species. I’ve tried to fit in, to crawl into those tini tiny places where my sadness drives me whenever I’m sad. I tried to get into it but for some odd reasons i couldn’t get through completely. Then i thought to look through the colorful doors of happiness. I could hear something through it but wasn’t so sure what it was. Then i sneaked through the key hole when the immense light burnt me to ashes. Suddenly, I realized that i was on the other side of that mysterious door where I could touch the rainbows, smell the Lilly, I could fly and could dive to the depth of seas. I could love and feel it too for the first time ever. And when all my imaginations became real, I met some random acquaintances, Friends.
Adil Siddiq
H O P E !!
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: March 30, 2009
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Every single night when there is no light in my room , I stare and search for any sign or a glimpse of tiny light in my room.
They say its madness, I call it hope.
Adil Siddiq
Oh wait, lets move On !!!
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: March 19, 2009
In life, there comes a time when we often face a complicated and sophisticated situation involving the rapidly re transformed behaviors of our loved ones. We try to ignore this but often, we fail to do so. To say it or to silently wait, its not the question. At least not anymore. The basic query is Why?
What can make a person change into someone we don’t find our self being familiar with. Too many random questions arise, trying to pin us down from time to time and our emotions run wild. We just find ourselves turned into a drop of rain on a rope which neither falls nor stays, hanging there waiting for the gravity to overcome it. We our self make ourselves complicated but then, the conclusion, it remains a mystery to us and even to itself. We are confused in making up our mind. Either to fix things or to leave them on the people who had actually changed. Or maybe, we neglect the third possibility, its finally time to move on and away…..
A Dangerous definition…
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: March 12, 2009
Believing everybody is dangerous, Believing nobody is very dangerous.
nothing at all
Posted by: Adil Siddiq on: March 2, 2009
Yo!!!
Nothing really has been happening really but yes, the creative germs have surely been evaporated and seems they have gone for good now. Lets just wait and I’d stay away from things for a while…. I like it this way. Getting my peace of mind.
Haven’t been writing anything or composed anything recently. Seems time is on to do something of what already has been made. i missed my blog, so would make a very short post.
I watched Rocky Balboa starring Sylvester Stallone! All 6 parts, complete. From 1979 till 2006. Trust me, It is amazing. No more awesome words to describe it.
Oscars were boring, in fact, i didn’t watch them completely. But for me, Will Smith’s 7 Pounds was the best movie for the year 2008 which sadly wasn’t even a nomination! That sucked!
Slumdog Millionaire, on the other hand won most of everything. Though it is a brilliant film but not for so many awards. So that drama, still is a drama. Don’t get it, really….
Looking forward to watch Tom Cruise’s Valkyrie.
Cut my hair super short and yeah, bought a new car. Its nice driving new wheels though i don’t drive much now..
That is it… nothing much nothing at all…
Recently in my world..